The past month has not been easy that is for sure. Following my emergency back surgery, I had to receive 20 rounds of radiation on three sites on my back and neck. My body did not tolerate these sessions well at all. They say no one does. This caused me to be in and out of the hospital for six weeks as I battled the side effects and dehydration. Being in and out of the hospital has been both a blessing and a curse. There were many moments when I really needed to be there under a watchful eye and be taken care of. Luckily I had the best team of nurses who cared deeply about me and made being there not suck so much. However, a lot of the time all I wanted to do was to get out of there, eat a home cooked meal, sleep in my own bed with Max, and hang out with my friends. I was able to come home from the hospital on the 3rd of October and have been doing okay since.
Because of the surgery, radiation, and long stay in the hospital, I lost a lot of weight and strength. My goals being back home now are to eat and drink a healthy amount as well as keep on working towards my physical goals. Soon enough I’ll be back to walking more independently and I am already working on my yoga, which has helped me significantly during this battle. I have also been incorporating meditation and reflexology into my routine. I meet with a friend from yoga for an hour-long guided meditation when I am home and use the Headspace app with my mom every day now. Reflexology I have mentioned before but I had a session today and the lady was able to tell where in my body I was hurting just by touching my feet. I got lots of relief after and believe that taking a holistic approach to this battle is the only way.
Despite the difficulties I am facing, there are so many things I am grateful for. Even though I can’t walk on my own yet, I am not paralyzed which could have been the case if I did not have emergency surgery. I have been at home, besides doctors appointments, for several days and have been able to see some of my friends who were home for the long weekend including a fall themed Paint Night.
Going into the fall and Thanksgiving season, I just want to remind every to take a moment and be grateful for their health and the little things they are able to accomplish each day. My parents have been my complete caregivers taking care of me every moment of every day and for that, I am beyond grateful. Holly made a sign hanging on the wall of my room that says, “Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day.” and it has never felt truer to me.