I want to begin this post by thanking everyone who commented and reached out to me last week after my first official blog post about my battle with cancer. Many messages said how you admired my positivity and strength which I deeply appreciated during this past week since it was a very difficult and long week of chemo, during which I often felt I was staring down death. I cried uncontrollably as I questioned how my life had come to this fight.
Thankfully I have the most amazing support around me, literally, each and every one of you who is reading this, sent me a message, or even just thought of my during their day. With this support, I was able to get through the week and will be able to make it through this fight. I truly wish everyone could experience this type of widespread love because I know a lot of people do not. Because of this, on my darkest days, I keep on fighting because I want to continue to be able to experience life with all my friends and family.
I’m twenty-one fighting a rare presentment of a rare disease and all I want is to know that I will be okay and that I have a bright future ahead of me. BUT, life isn’t like that for anyone. That is what I have had to come to peace with. Even though I myself have a scary disease, it could have happened to anyone, but I would never wish this upon anyone else.
What I have come to realize over the past week with the help of everyone’s kind messages is that I am alive and living and loved and that is enough. All I need each day is to remind myself that I am living and live as “normal” a life I would be living without this cancer to get me through it. I will not let cancer control my mind or my life.